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i keep thinking, should i send him in the first place or just be waiting down here with all of my cuirosity about him and his life.
am i afraid to start something big in my life.? i guess i'm just afraid of hurt feelings that i'll have when i got dumped, left behind, so stupid in my entire life. what should i do.? hmm., i think about something once. if you want somebody do it for you, then you have to do it first to somebody. it's just like give and take things, i'll give you dan i'll take you., really like that.? am i right.? or wrong.. i don't know exactly..
or just like this, i don't have to start but just make sure it's the right email address.. hahaha it's just the same,huh.? but, somebody should start it first, or it will never started. then.?
what's my decision.?

i'll send him.,

i won't send him.,

send him.,

don't send him.,

what.??


arghh..