what should i do.?

i wanna confess about sumthing.,
there's sum part of my heart now .
maybe.,yeah . about three part.?what can i say,exactly .
hmm.,first part is i really wanna start my new life as an adult person.,i wanna start my life in Bandung.,with my stuff . you know.,i wanna be Ambassador sumday.,i wanna make them proud to have a daughter like me.,but i'm still struggling with my dad . even though he thought that he could fulfill my daily needs.,but he can't fulfill his oath to God.,he have to stand by for my mom, until the day they will be seperated with God's own will.,is it rite.?am i rite.?
the other things is., i don't wanna leave my sister alone . in this kind of darkness.,she don't deserve that . she was just a kid, anyway . i wanna show her the beauty of life,.all the happy thoughts without thingking about my parents problems.,they're old enough to divide the good and the bad,rite.? they should've been more calm and open minded with all stuff in the world.,
and the last things is.,i felt like i was a huge stuff to carry for my parents life.,i don't wanna make them tired to thingking about me.,you know.?
yeah . i don't know how to be a good parents.,i'm not a good girl either.,but one thing i know.,as long as i believe in God's plan.,and always follow His words,i'll be okey.