Strong-Hearted

What i used to say to people - is happening to me, definitely. How come? I really don't know. Maybe that's what you called, what you see in most people is what you are. Telling them about every single thing easly, is not easly anyway.
What so different about it? I really don't know.
How to deal with it? Where should i seek the answer?
I'm in the middle of something huge here. Something that most people doesn't know about me. How i treated my self and my dearest one - unfair.
Fair and square for those who are not my dearest one.
I mistreated him so badly, even want to spend my entire day to just sitting next to him. But, he got bored easly. In ten minutes of silence, he would be asleep. What a nightmare! No it's not, it's what keep me awake, sitting and sitting and sitting. He used to talk much around me. Well, he still do talk much around me. But not now, because we are facing the tighten schedule around us. That cannot smash in the same time and same room with the same people.
We spent our time differently, he used to chit chat with his beloved friends, while i used to spending most of my time working on something or just hanging out with my beloved friends. Which we had no common friends, most of the time.
Different place, time, friends, and games.
We are different. From bunches of places around the city.
But, we met, indeed.
We fell for each other.
And, we enjoyed every single thing that we do.
I loved his black strong hair, He loved my soft cheek.

He has a huge task now.
What should i do?
I definitely, have to do something to help him out.
He sorted all of his problems alone, when i sorted mine with him always standing next to me.
Let me do this things rightly.
Righteously.
Please..

I want to do something for him.
For my dearest one.

Thank you for letting us to be together.
I do not know what happens next, but i know it would be all is well.
The greatest good for all.