Hey, My Man

Hey, how was your day?
Hey, you must’ve been really happy now. I can feel it, when you’re sitting and having a great time with some people – especially you mom. I won’t disturb you today; just have a great time, ok?
Hey, I’ll be gone the day after tomorrow. It’s the saddest thing that happened to me now, when I have to leave you all alone – even I know you’ll be just fine, but me? I will not be ok – it’s Y’less. What a term!
Hey, I couldn’t breathe easily now – without knowing about you today. My eyes watering, my tummy won’t be hungry and I still don’t know where you are. What a pathetic girl!

Talk to you soon. :)

Mind and Soul

Dear, Man.
There’s a huge differences between us. The things neither you nor me could ever change. The basic things created and applied by easterners. What do you think about it? Well, you must’ve said that you’re not interested in traditions that captivated some people in some placed, Liberated Man. But, why then you never mention this before? You never mention about our future in your brilliant words, Classics Man. You can explain and describe a lot of the studies from whole over the world, but this is it – the things that haven’t been said by you. Aren’t you interested or not anymore? You’re just the man of my dream, Bold Man. You made your own space in my mind and soul – without further discussion with me. But I love it, like it, adore it, and want it. Because it’s you, Masterpiece Man. Taken from much man that created a smile in my face, your smile is the widest one. Taken from much man that created a tears drop in my chin, your tears definitely not the worst one – my other Big Man still hold the first champion.
Is this love or just our runaway path? When, you’re lonesome, I fill you with my passion. When I’m lonesome, you fill me with your passion. Just by standing side by side, do that counts? I do hope it counts as our willingness of happiness.
Am I the one that keep on wanting or hoping you and me can work this out? I want to be there, hold you tight, when you’re alone. We’re just having the highest level of shyness, when we couldn’t even tell eye to eye about this. I’m too arrogant to even bring this up to the surface. What about you? Do you even understand what’s on your mind and soul?

Dear, who-ever-you-are

my heart is as cold as my feet now. trembling since the very beginning. you made me couldn't be sad as i used to, but made me smile as wide as i've ever been. those feeling, when you're standing right next to me, made me tummyache. but, very happy indeed. you can control me heart, just like flipping your hand. me heart is soulfully for you. don't know since when, but you kept those smile and happiness around. thank you for everything - maybe you have not understand now, but i'm sure you will. in fact, you made me feel this way. did this was also your capability as a human being? making others hearts beats so fast and made them sad at the same time?

dear, who-ever-you-are,
please take care of me heart. the only one that i protect and had for a while time. you also made me mom happy, everytime i told her about you and your gentle attitude. me mom have not felt that way in a long time, all i wanted is to make her happy. just like you wanted to do with your mom. both of them is all that we have right? well, maybe when me dad come back - in some short period of time, he'd be happy to have you too. because you're different, but still low profile and gentle.

dear, who-ever-you-are,
please take care of our growing love. let it grow and grow, as big as its wanted. i'm happy to be with you, taking care of you. even though just sitting next to you, while you're doing your mountains of job. i always believe you can do those things. well, you're the master, sir.

dear, who-ever-you-are,
let's working so dam* hard to catch our falling stars. because, you always had your thousands dreams, so do i. let's grab them together. keep praying and sitting right next to each other, protecting our heart and love, and also our habits. sorry, to prohibit you with this and that, i'm sure you don't like to be captivated. but it's always been for you and me own good. reminding us of how this life will be beautiful with you in mine, and me in yours.

dear, who-ever-you-are,
already missing you now. those feeling crawling in me mind and heart. hoping that you will understand. you did you best, and you always will do your best, you're my dream, pal. what about me? am i worth it for you? that's all i'm asking..

dear, who-ever-you-are,
if we're meant to be together, you'll come for me, and i'll come for you. all that i wanted, is to be with you.

#dear, Almighty-God
hear our prayer.
thank you.

Lagu Wanita

Selama ada wanita
Hidup ‘kan terasa indah
Jikalau tiada wanita
Hidup ‘kan terasa hampa

Ku lahir dari wanita
Tak bisa hidup tanpanya
Jikalau tiada wanita
Cintaku untuk siapa

Tiada lelah ku berucap
Terima kasih Tuhan
Engkau ciptakan wanita
‘tuk jadi pasangan jiwa

Oh... wanita...

The Best Day

I'm five years old, it's getting cold, I've got my big coat on
I hear your laugh and look up smiling at you, I run and run
Past the pumpkin patch and the tractor rides, look now, the sky is gold
I hug your legs and fall asleep on the way home

I don't know why all the trees change in the fall
But I know you're not scared of anything at all
Don't know if Snow White's house is near or far away
But I know I had the best day with you today

I'm thirteen now and don't know how my friends could be so mean
I come home crying and you hold me tight and grab the keys
And we drive and drive until we found a town far enough away
And we talk and window shop 'til I've forgotten all their names

I don't know who I'm gonna talk to now at school
But I know I'm laughing on the car ride home with you
Don't know how long it's gonna take to feel okay
But I know I had the best day with you today

I have an excellent father, his strength is making me stronger
God smiles on my little brother, inside and out, he's better than I am
I grew up in a pretty house and I had space to run
And I had the best days with you

There is a video I found from back when I was three
You set up a paint set in the kitchen and you're talking to me
It's the age of princesses and pirate ships and the seven dwarfs
And Daddy's smart and you're the prettiest lady in the whole wide world

And now I know why the all the trees change in the fall
I know you were on my side even when I was wrong
And I love you for giving me your eyes
For staying back and watching me shine
And I didn't know if you knew, so I'm takin' this chance to say
That I had the best day with you today

mr. with a red bike

he's the one that made me couldn't stop smiling.
how come? he was just saying beautiful things, but the simple one.
asking about me self in almost every basic informations.
thoughtful.

he's the one that made me feel special.
how come? he was just treat me well, even in small things.
do this and that softly and gently.
gorgeous.

he's the one that made me angry, so stressful.
how come? he was just trying to ask me out, too late.
changing some appointments in the last minutes.
spontaneous.

he's the one that made me feel proud, just by standing right next to him.
how come? he was doing his usual habits.
in fact, he's a great man - know what he's doing.
fabulous.

he's the one that made me speechless - quite girl.
how come? he said about those wonderful things out there.
when, i couldn't stop just listening to him, at some point maybe he's tired of talking, then silence still.
smart.

he's the one that made me waiting and waiting.
how come? come and go, is his freewill.
maybe, every girl would not waiting for this kind of man.
workaholic.

he's the one that always look me in the eye.
how come? when he talk, walk, even driving - always wanted to see the eyes of his opponents.
eagle eyes.

he's the one that made me breathless.
how come? i made stupid things when i'm next to him.
nervous always being my friend when i'm with him.
adorable.

he's the one that made me fall for him.
how come? less than a week, he already stole my heart.
please, take care of this gently, i needed it.
gentlemen.

he always and always..
done everything beautifully, full of his brilliant thoughts.
the smiles, wide up, nicely - always made me feel peaceful.
hard to find him, nowadays.

please, let it flow, sweetie pie..
(you made me need you)

malem minggu gila

hahahahahahaaa..
what a stupid girl i am.

doi lebih sedih karena ga ada bola di malem minggu ini.
sedangkan gw? hey, i'm so pathetic.
mencak2 dikamar sendirian, gara2 doi malem minggu ini.
emang dasar HEARTLESS. kampret.
mulut gw udah ampe pait banget gara2 ngerokok malem minggu ini.
doi? makan bebek ama temen2nya. hahahahaha.
bilangnya males keluar karena macet malem minggu ini.
tapi? gw ditinggal ampe ga laper2..

tonight.

not as easy as that, gorgeous.
please, not tonight.

i'm done with you, tonight.
i lost my appetite, tonight.
just want to mourning, tonight.
finishing my paper, tonight.
then watching DVD, tonight.

(why am i waiting for you, tonight?)

get lost, tonight.
i need more time to make things right, tonight.
because i'm angry tonight.

anger : useless

who the hell am I?
a confusing night with a confusing man.
my head is full of anger, that's why i'm smoking now. (sorry, mom)
from every girl that he met, why he have to choose me?
instead of those beautiful and smart-ass ladies?
those tears are not for you, sweetie.
it's for me, why am i so pathetic? thinking about tonight.
too much expectations, i guess.
stupid girl!
me? oh, no i'm not stupid..
i was just faking all of my sweetness and happiness with lies.
i wish, i could be the girl that you wanted.
high class girl, huh?
i'm definitely not, gorgeous.
you're high class man?
hell yeah, (at least that WAS my thought)
but, you're just busy with your work, life, i don't know what else.

i'm so sorry.
about what i said.
i'm just so angry tonight.
you turn my night upside down.
why?
how could you?
changing our plan, in your own way.

you know what.
it's useless.
we're different enough.
i hope this is the challenge when i choose to be with you.
just do whatever it is, that you loved.
then, come back, when you're ready.
what about me? am i always be ready for you?
well, i can't answer that now, handsome.

takecare.

laki2 hebat

luar biasa..
mungkin menjadi impian setiap wanita yang mendengarnya berbicara tentang pengetahuan dari berbagai ujung bumi.
gaya uniknya dalam menyampaikan segala sesuatu.
penuh dengan percaya diri, kadang dengan keraguan pula.
tapi itulah yang menarik.
kerendahan diri yang tiada bandingnya.
ia telah mencapai hal2 luar biasa dalam hidup ini.
sebentar lagi waktunya disini akan berakhir.
akan segera memulai sesuatu yang baru, yang luar biasa indah.
dengan bangga bisa bercerita kepada semua orang tentangnya.
ia telah keluar dari kebiasaannya seperti yang lain.
ia telah terbang tinggi, padahal belum waktunya.
tapi ia telah berhasil menggapai serpihan mimpinya sedikit demi sedikit.
berbagai kisah hidupnya mengalir begitu saja dari bibir singkronnya.
menyampaikan sesuatu dengan begitu meyakinkan.
terlihat dari sipit matanya, ia yakin, ia ragu.
tapi tanpa lelah, terus maju.
Tuhan, jika memang ia untukku, berkatilah.
jika memang ia bukan untukku, berikanlah yang terbaik padanya dan padaku.
semuanya pasti akan baik2 saja.
aku yakin itu.
jangan pernah menyerah, laki2 hebat.
karena dipunggunmu, pasti akan ada seseorang yang memelukmu dikala kedinginan.

mimpimimpihidup

seseorang pasti punya tujuan hidup.
berbagai mimpi yang ditancapkan dengan setinggi langit.
dengan bangga berbagi mimpi dan semangat yang membara.
mendengarnya membuat hati pilu dan terus berdoa.
keyakinanlah yang membuatnya bertahan.
semakin dekat dengan berbagai mimpinya.
mimpiku pun akan kugantungkan dengan tinggi.
berharap dapat meraihnya bersama.
mungkinkah kita dapat bertahan?
mungkinkah kita mencapainya suatu saat nanti?
hatiku berdegup kencang saat ini, saat itu, dan akan terus begitu.
engkaulah yang membuatku berpikir tentang masa depan yang luar biasa.
keyakinan inilah yang kupegang teguh.
berharap, kaupun begitu berpegang pada-Nya.
berjuanglah, kekasih hati.
aku akan mendampingi disini.
mungkinkah kita bisa bersama hingga saat itu.
adakah hal yang membatasi kita?
terkagum dan menganga hatiku mendengarnya.
haruslah terus berjuang!
terus!
pantang menyerah.
percaya hati ini, engkau akan mencapainya.
silimitsilimitcicit.
hujan yang sedikit mengaliri hari kemarin.
semoga menjadi kenangan yang tidak terlupakan.